By: Vicki White
“I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the Lord’s holy people, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.” ~ Ephesians 3:16-19
Have you ever felt so hopeless and depressed you didn’t even know how to pray? I was there. As I came into my quiet time one morning, I sat there for several minutes unable to even pray. I finally said, “Holy Spirit, help me pray. I don’t even know what to say right now.” As I sat there waiting for words to come, I suddenly got a picture in my mind of myself, fully-grown, but about the size of a toddler, standing before God’s Throne. Suddenly, He bent down and picked me up as if I were a little child. He sat me on His lap, pressed my head to His chest, wrapped His great arms around me and just held me there. I don’t know how long I sat there with my eyes closed, sobbing in a mixture of emotions and swirling thoughts before I finally began to just say, “Thank You, Abba! Thank You, Lord! Thank You, Father!”
Without words, God had ministered to my deepest need to be heard; a need I didn’t even know I had. He revealed a level of love to me that I had never known: a father’s love. My earthly father was a good, kind, and gentle man. He was a good provider, a deacon in the church, the church Treasurer, a Sunday School teacher, and everyone liked and respected him. He was a World War II veteran who had seen fierce battle and had a Silver Star and a Purple Heart to prove it. He never raised his voice and lived an exemplary Christian life. However, he did not know how to express affection, and I do not remember, as a child, ever hearing him tell me he loved me. These days, they call it emotionally unavailable.
God knew that what I needed more than anything was the demonstration of something I never knew I needed. Immediately, I knew that His was the love I had been looking for my whole life. I had searched for fulfillment in relationships, money, work, and every other thing I knew to try, but this emptiness remained with me…until that morning when God sat me on His lap and showered me with His great and unfathomable love. While John 3:16 tells us that God loves us so much that He sent His Son to die for us, until you experience it, merely reading the words cannot possibly convey the enormity of it.
If you have not experienced the Father’s love, ask Him. He is faithful and wants to demonstrate His love for you far more than you can possibly want it.
Prayer: Father God, thank You for Your great love for me. I ask You to wrap me in the beauty and wonder of Your expressed love for me so I can learn how great, how high, how wide, and how deep it really is. Thank You for sending Your Son, Jesus, to open the veil so I can enter into the Holy of Holies and know You, heart-to-heart, as Your beloved child. Lead me into greater depths of Your love and expand my capacity to love You as You so deserve to be loved, I pray in Jesus’ mighty Name, amen.
In: Abba Father
Out: Help me receive Your love.